I finally realized that the power which I adore so

　　i finally realized that the power which i adore so much.

　　我終于意識到了我所憧憬的力量。

　　so i'll try my best to do it.

　　所以我將盡我最大的努力去做。

　　although i'm still weak and not good, i just knew the reason of my being here.

　　盡管我仍然脆弱并且差勁，但是我終于明白了我出生的理由。

　　i must become hardier and hardier, only for my dream.

　　為了我的夢想我必須變得更加堅強。

　　these days i sank into my memory all the way, but nothing changed.

　　這些天我一直沉迷于我的記憶中，但是什么都沒有改變。

　　so i knew it's wrong.

　　所以我終于明白這么做是錯的。

　　it'll never make me grow up or more brave.

　　這么做永遠不能使我長大或者更勇敢。

　　i should face to myself and do something by myself.

　　我應該面對我自己并且自己親自做一些事情。

　　i knew there is something just i can do.

　　我知道有一些事情是僅僅只有我能做的。

　　in other words, there's always some important things nobody can do except me in this world.

　　換而言之，這個世界上總有一些重要的事情除了我沒有人能做到。

　　after all，i'll get over all the difficulties by myself.

　　最終我將自己克服所有的苦難。

　　i see.

　　我知道的。

　　i still remembered that on that sunny day heyang smiled and taught me, "don't make everything a lie."我仍然記得在那個晴朗的日子赫洋笑著對我說：“不要讓一切化為泡影。”

　　her sweet smile was still keep in my mind.

　　她那時的甜美的笑臉一直留在我的腦海中。

　　i knew i made a glaring mistake.

　　我知道我犯了個很大的錯誤。

　　but i will revive from the past days just like the phoenix nirvanas.

　　但是我將從過去中復活就像鳳凰涅槃一樣。

　　i believe i will.

　　我相信我將會。

　　just because i knew there is hope for myself yet, i don't want to abandon now.

　　僅僅因為我知道我仍然還有希望，我不想現在就放棄。

　　i won't give up my dream or my heart until i die.

　　我直到死才會放棄我的夢想和我的心靈。

　　it's my promise.

　　這是我的誓言。

　　maybe i will still childish, but i believed that i can grow up and make my dream come true.

　　也許我將仍然充滿孩子氣，但是我想我會長大并且令我的夢想成真。

　　just for myself，i won't be afraid of changing or true.

　　我將不會害怕改變或者顯示，就為了我自己。

　　if one day i lose myself and my dream, i'll be dejected and decadent again.

　　也許有一天我會失去我自己和我的夢想，我將在一次變得消沉頹廢。

　　so can you remind me of my promise?

　　所以你能提醒我記起曾許下的諾言嗎？

　　it's important for me. i need more courage.

　　它對我很重要。我需要更多的勇氣。

　　though i still feel myself inferior and timid, i also realized that i must stand up and pursue the goal of perfection in my world.

　　盡管我仍然自卑怯懦，我也意識到我必須站起來并且我追求我的目標——屬于我的世界的完美境界。

　　i want to initiate a world which just belongs to me in the boundaries of writers.

　　我想在作家界開創一個只屬于我的世界。

　　i'll find myself and a style only is mine.

　　我將找到我自己和只屬于我的風格。

　　maybe i can't achieve my dream for it is so big, but i will take the trouble to do this.

　　也許我不能實現我的夢想，但是我將盡我最大的努力去做。

　　i don't want to regret that i thought i do nothing for my dream when i'm old.

　　我不想在我老的時候因為想到自己為了夢想什么都沒做而遺憾。

　　i'll revive from the past days than to be much better than before. i know.

　　我將從過去中復活然后做得比過去好。我知道。

　　——純原創